Ægrus Somnium

again with serious posts, starting to get tired of people, people near and far, tired of double faces and all that shit, i’m 30 and it feels like i’m in a room full of toddlers at times, i wanna grab a hammer and start smashing these porcelain masks to see whats behind every one of them, see what peoples real agendas are, and it’s great that people think they are hiding stuff, the things i’ve seen, the friends i have, the things i’m going through, nearly everything comes out to me, the amusing thing, and this has happened for years, people become friends with someone i’ve know and been good friends with for YEARS then say something and not expect me to hear, seriously?, i don’t stay friends that long with people i don’t trust, the fun part is sending bullshit back down the grapevine to ruffle feathers lol, then i go my psychiatrist fucking things up for me because he’s an asshole, gee, he doesn’t have enough going wrong lets throw a speedbump here, and lets see, another speedbump here, and during court i got to see what he wrote about me, one of the questions he had to answer is if i was faking, ok, well, it was written more technical then that and he replied “i can’t answer that at this time”, fuck you buddy, yeah, i’ve been faking all of it since i tried killing myseld at 16, these scars all over my arm and chest are actualy special fx, all these pills i’ve been subjected to were just candy and all the hospitalizations i was actually on vacation, shhhhhhh, so if you have issues take your mask off and speak up, on an amusing note we all went out and played mini golf today and some idiot kids who don’t seem to have been parented too well or who most likely just weren’t being watched enough at the time were running all over the course and climbing on everything came running past and one ran right across our “green” as we were playing and jackie just laid down the law it was hilarious